God, Are We There Yet?
Reading the book of Job today reminded me that God has a plan and He is righteous so we must trust him. The problem that I struggle with most is that God doesn’t keep time. He doesn’t even have a watch. No, not even an Apple Watch. And that is at the root of my struggle with Faith. Although for the record, God made me a control freak. But look what I’ve done: I’ve started in the middle of the story! So let me backup and share today’s mind-meandering journey that starts with Job and ends with a GPS-ME.
It was when I read Job 34:35-36 that I realized time was my issue: “Job speaks without knowledge; his words are without insight’ Would that Job were tied to the end.” My mind drifted back to something I read in Lee Strobel’s book The Case For A Creator: Cosmologist William Lane Craig, PhD, ThD, explains that space and time were created by God, at what we call the Big Bang. So, God transcends time and space. Ok. Cool. Wait - transcends space and time? HUH?! To help me bend my mind around this concept, I turned to the vast and unstable GOOGLE-sphere for an explanation. I settled on this, from “FRIEND,” in an anonymous post: “Beyond boundaries of space and time. Since both are temporary illusions associated with this present-temporary physical state, time and space do not exist. They only appear to. Eternity is not a continuous line of time that extends forever. Eternity is the complete absence of time. In eternity, it is impossible to tell the difference between 6 seconds and 87 billion years because there is no actual difference. Space - or distance - is also an illusion. ‘Reality is a mere illusion, albeit a very persistent one.’ -Albert Einstein.“ Ok, this time I think I got it. This clarifies how God is truly omnipresent (present everywhere at the same time - answering my question as to how he can hear the prayers of everyone at the same time), omniscient (having unlimited knowledge - way cool), and omnipotent (having unlimited power - such as the creation of time and space).
I already confessed that I am a control freak - the predicable result of times when my independence and impatience collide. Let me give you an example: After praying for an answer or a solution to a problem - big or small - as the “Amen” is still on my breathe and my eyes are starting to open, I am already scanning the walls for Divine-Written-Instructions. IN NEON. When none appear immediately, impatience leaps upon me, ever the opportunistic predator, and my fight for Faith begins. This takes place in one of three acts.
First Act: Asking God again (and again) and/or asking God for bigger, clearer signs (convinced he already answered and I missed it).
Second Act: Seeking a second opinion (before getting the first) from friends, family, books, or a new personality test (and interpreting God’s silence as uninvolved/unconcerned/unaware).
Third Act: Striking out on a path of my choosing before the way is clear.
I use the predator metaphor for my impatience, as the Bible often uses a Lion to depict those who rely on self, rather than God (Psalms 34:10), “The young lions suffer want and hunger; but those who seek the Lord lack no good thing,” and as a sign of the wicked (Ps 7:2). “O Lord my God, in you do I take refuge; save me from all my pursuers and deliver me, lest like a lion they tear my soul apart, rendering it in pieces, with none to deliver.” So the reference in Job, “The roar of the lion, the voice of the fierce lion, the teeth of the young lions are broken. The strong lion perishes for lack of p